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When A Writer Doesn’t Write

Filed under: Musings on Being a Writer — Laura Moncur @ 7:00 am

Writing has been a struggle for me. I have been so incredibly lazy for MONTHS now. I’d like to say that I’ve been doing something productive like learning a new programming language or painting or doing ANY type of creative activity. Unfortunately, I’ve been spending my time playing Bejeweled and Plants vs. Zombies.

This isn’t the first time this has happened.

I had a stint a couple of years ago with an Animal Crossing obsession. Even when I first started this blog, I had this trouble.

It feels like the words leave me. Because I have dealt with this before, I feel like I should be calm and rational about it. I should be able to just use my logic, knowing that the words came back before means that they’ll come back this time.

But I am not a logical creature, no matter how much I wish to be.

Whenever I feel this empty, there is an accompanying panic that I will ALWAYS be this empty. There is a fear that my words will never return.

What does it mean when a writer doesn’t write? Am I still a writer?

My instinct is to quit writing completely. Let all the blogs go dark and say that I’m not coming back in the foreseeable future. I could get a job being a secretary or scanning merchandise at Walmart. At least with a receptionist job, I would get health insurance for less than $750 a month. Maybe I NEED to be bored out of my skull with a job that doesn’t task my mind in order to get my words back.

All I know is that I am sick of being unproductive and I want to feel the flow of letters out of my fingers again. What do I need to do?


1 Comment »

  1. Sounds like it’s time to go somewhere … other than Yellowstone Park (grin) … and see / do something new. Fresh air helps my writing a lot (and it needs some serious help). I’m interested in seeing the newly redone museum in Park City and there’s a new exhibit at the Springville museum. In any regard, writing about the reluctance to write has made for a good blog entry!

    Comment by Roland Smith — 5/11/2010 @ 8:31 am

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