Betsy Devine clicked this picture of me back in March. It was right before I slipped into my latest binge nightmare. Looking at this picture has made me want to get back to that. I felt so strong and healthy and I looked pretty good. Last Sunday, I started back on the plan that I was on when I felt like that. Soon I will look as good at Betsy made me look that day.

It’s funny how a simple picture clicked so quickly can mean so much. Betsy was the only person who got a picture of me right at that time in my life. I’m always on the other side of the camera and I forget that sometimes I need to click a picture of myself in order to keep tabs. I remember seeing that picture in March and thinking that I looked fat. I remember pointing to my upper arms and hoping for better in the future.

Now, I would love to look like that for the rest of my life: upper arm flabbiness and all.